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There is always a day in my month that i completely break. I don't think it's healthy, but can i do? Us, creative minds we always push ourselves to the limits. That's when creativity starts. If you don't break, how do you reset? 7 is my number, and by accident, i'm writing my most honest post.
Even though 90% of the times i'm a positive thinker, on that day i wake up feeling miserable. Like, however hard i try there is always someone working harder. Whatever i do, is not that good, i am not that good. Like i'm drained out of my creativity and whatever i touch turns into *your imagination here*. No that day, is not the day i get my period, i know you would have thought that. But you can call it a designer's period honestly. Cos that's what it is.
Those days usually come when i push myself. And oh boy, i do that a lot! I know i'm the one writing about taking breaks and getting rest, buy we all know that a lot of times, you just can't afford 15 minutes. Although each day i say how blessed i am to be doing what i love, i find myself saying a lot as well "Will i ever wake up to a day, that i won't have to do anything at all?" Yes, sometimes it does get overwhelming. When you work a lot, you get frustrated, and when you get frustrated you wish you had time to get everything done. And when you realise you don't, that's when you get that stupid designer's period.
So you guessed correctly. I got mine yesterday, and put a lot of thought on why / how this is working and what helps me pass it. What i realised, is that the times i hit rock bottom, i get back even stronger. These are the times i'm highly creative. We always put on a face, how strong / confident / awesome we are, but when we're breaking down, it kinda feels ..liberating!
When breaking down, because you feel that others are better than you. They're not. They're different. They're unique, just like you are.
Get those feelings out
Oh man, i'm an easy crier. Not admitting that you feel miserable, won't make that feeling go away. Giving in, and getting it out, that's when get to realise more about yourself.
Take a nap and drink chocolate
Hahh well, that always seems to be my solution! Replace chocolate, with whatever comforts you. But have in mind that "Molecules found in chocolate, is similar to a substance called valproic acid. Valproic acid is a chemical used in mood-stablising drugs. It’s used to help ‘level out’ the moods of people who suffer with emotional ups and downs and for bi-polar disorder"
Someone will remind you how awesome you are
My hubs is the man. He always knows when i have those days, and he knows how to make me feel better. It could be your friend, sister etc. Things that you already know but forget, you need to hear them.
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